my awakening in the night

So, I had fallen asleep around 11:30 and was suddenly awakened out of a sound sleep! The sudden urge to write... but I was tired.



Suddenly a song was playing on my ipod.... Legacy by Sanctus Real.

Free me , my hands are tied , I'm so tired of wasting time , these endless inventions steal my attention from real life ((when its done , when its done))Oh i wanna leave a legacy , to be remembered , more than just a memory that fades away , 'cause we only (we only ) get one life

And will the world see christ , when they look at my life ....Oh will the world see

Come on , give me ,give me , real life , no more no more wastein time .. cause we only we only get one life (Just one life)

So... this is what I wrote.



So its 12:30 am... and I am awakened. Feeling heavy burdened to write this note- so much so I tried to ignore it and could not go back to sleep. I had to get up despite what time it was and what time I have to get up in the morning.



Nevertheless, My heart is weighing heavy as many "Christians" live their lives daily- living for themselves, solving THEIR OWN problems on their own; but say they are relying on God to take care of it. Ever notice man's common problem? -- Themselves. But my heart is aching. We get ONE life ONE chance to proclaim God, the Gospel, HIS work in our lives, the cross, HIS redemption, HIS goodness, HIS just being, HIS righteousness, HIS holiness, HIS righteous anger, HIS sovereignty, HIS forgiveness, HIS sacrifice, HIS choosing us, HIS love for us, HIS hatred of sin, HIS intolerance for the tolerant church, HIS creation, HIS guidance, HIS counsel, HIS trust, HIM not need you, but choosing you, HIS unending grace, HIS mercy, HIS sanctification, HIS imputation, HIM taking your place on the cross, where YOU and I should have died, HIS ability to defeat death and Hell, HIS healing, HIS righteous right hand that holds up the Christian daily, HIS word on our heart, HIM the one who knit you together in your mothers womb, HE who is the beginning and the end, HE who holds your tears, HIM who wrote out your life, for HIS good, HE who gave you breath, HIS desire that none would perish, HIS correction and discipline, HIS friendship for the lonely heart, HE the I AM WHO I AM, HE the awesome God, HE the Creator, greater so much greater than creation. HE of divine love, happiness and peace, HE is first, last and ONLY, HE is omniscient, HE has directed the Spirit of the LORD, HE gives understanding, HE's taught the path of justice, HE gives wisdom to those who ask, HE does not forget those HE has called, HE has inscribed you on the palms of HIS hands, HIS ways are not our ways, HIS thoughts are not our thoughts, HE is almighty, HE is LORD, HE is the lilly of the valley, HE is eternal Father, HE is the Prince of peace, HE is the lamb who taketh away the sin of the world, HE is purer than gold, more precious than silver, HE is wiser than the wisest living man, HE is the Son of man, HE is the Word of God, which is alive and sharper than a two-edged sword, HE is the bread of life, HE is the Shepard, HE is the door of the sheep, HE is all sufficient, HE is the provider, HE is EVERYTHING, HE is JESUS CHRIST and HOLY SPIRIT, HE is the trinity, HE is calling to you, answer to HIM!



I have merely scratched the surface to all He is- we need to serve Him to fear Him to live for ONLY Him and who He is- be in his will not ours. OBEY and TRUST Him in everything not in somethings. Are you ready and willing to fallow Him to the full account- with all that you have- be not of this world but renewed in the likeness of Christ!!!! Christ was NOT sin, He became sin for His name sake to proclaim His goodness. To say I paid that price for you!!! What price are you willing to give for Him. He came to bind up the broken heart and set the captive free. He has anointed His chosen to do the same, to preach the gospel NOT to be ashamed of Him, ----- SO WHAT IF YOU OFFEND SOMEONE! It is called conviction... to their lost soul and their realization of their need of a Savior. This "you're right and I am right" stuff is Satan's tool to keep Christians silent----I AM SICK OF BEING SILENT!!!! being told that if you offend someone you are being too judgemental... AM I????? Is it TOO judgemental of me that I care and know where unsaved people go.... to Hell and I am trying to save them from that eternity if I spread the Gospel than a seed may be planted for God to grow and do work in that persons life. How is it that I am offending when I am only trying to protect and care for an unsaved brother or sister. How is it judgemental that I spread the Gospel in hopes that they would accept God by the conviction in their heart. The gospel is supposed to break and make you feel uncomfortable in your sin. Conviction that you are wrong and in a desperate and dire need for Gods saving grace. Your punishment is death, you and I deserve it for we have sinned against a Holy God, we cannot be in His presence for we are covered in sin. God is NOT sin, HE DOES NOT TOLERATE IT... so why should WE if we are to be LIKE HIM!!!!! A price is needed to be paid. So



" He sent His son into the world not to condemn the world but through Him may they be saved, through Him and ONLY Him. He who believes in Him is NOT judged, He who does not believe has been judged already because he has not believed in the ONLY begotten Son of God. This is the judgement, that Light has come into the world, and man loved the darkness rather than the Light, for their deeds were evil. For everyone who does evil HATES the Light, and does NOT come into the Light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But he who practices truth comes to the Light, so that his deeds may be manifested as having been wrought in God." John 3: 17-21



Don't you understand? My heart aches for the unbeliever. If you only focus on loving them, telling them its going to be okay- don't you realize, dear Christian, your TOLERANCE for them and THEIR SIN is you loving them, that person to death straight into their grave and their eternity in HELL. All because you cared for YOUR namesake, YOUR acceptance in this world. Well I AM SORRY! I WILL NOT BE THAT TYPE OF CHRISTIAN!!! I WILL NOT LOVE SOMEONE TO HELL, I BELIEVE IN THE POWER AND MIRACLE OF THE GOSPEL- I WILL NOT BE ASHAMED! because the moment I turned to Christ when He chose me. I said that I was NO longer a slave to sin but a BOND SERVANT of Christ. I am captivated by Him and NO other arms I would want my life to be in! We have this short life- to win souls for Him- we are not of this world - our focus is not on the things of this world but of something higher---- something ETERNAL. So why are we so scared??? If you are truly saved- what is the worst that could happen to you if you stood up for Christ unashamed??? DIE? Well, then you would be in eternity with the Savior--- Doesn't sound so bad now, Huh?



Well. Just to have you all know... Even my own words convicted me!!! Its not just for those who read it.



Love in Christ,

Rach

Three Days Till College.

Well, Its September already!!!! I am three days from starting my very first day in college.
Some may say I've experienced a bit of college in my Pathways class, though, then I had
a High School teacher not a Professor and yet got college credits...but still was maintained
at a High School level. Though the portfolio I completed was at college level. I am blessed
to say God has provided so much for me this first year. With many scholarships to completely
pay for my year. I will say at first, I was NOT willing to sit there and fill out so many scholarships.
Though, I am beyond thankful for those who made me and pushed me to fill them out. I am
blessed in so many ways. More than I deserve. I will never accredit any of this to myself or my
works for I am nothing aside from my Savior. He deserves all the glory, praise and honor from
my life and He should from yours too? What are you doing this day to live for Him? Does He have
complete control of your life? Are you a fence rider? (It doesn't exist really, either you are for
God and desire only Him or you are of the world and under satans complete control). Or
are you one of those who know all the right things to say, thinking you got everyone fooled
because you have all the knowledge right yet it hasn't fallen into your heart at all. Well you
may have all the right answers and can fool a lot of people. People wont be on your side
when the world is over and you stand alone in front of God and He states depart from me
for I never knew you... and you can say well I did this or that in His name... but it will
not stand. Maybe its time you stand up and now decide whose side are you really on?
If you realize you are not saved... cry out to Jesus and plead and beg of Him to chose and
save you. Never stop praying that until He does, and if you are sincere He will.
Praying for you all,
God bless,
Love in Christ
Rach

New Poetry, after my true genuine salvation on March 15th, 2010

I am transparent before You, oh Lord
See in my heart every part of me
Purify my unclean being
Separate me, Lord, Separate me!

I don't want to be who I was
And who I was fights for me to join them again
But that's not who I am
That's who I was
But now I'm striving to be like You, Jesus!

So I lay at Your feet,
My selfish being
Take all of me, Lord, Take all of me!

I am trying to do it on my own
But I fall again
Lord, pick me up, pick me up again.

Because, I'm striving to be like,
to look like,
to act like
My Savior.

Lord, take all of me, take all of me
All I have to offer is my sinful heart
All I can give is my praise to who You are, Lord Jesus!

Lord, I give it all to You
I lay it all at Your feet
I'm holding nothing back, holding nothing back from You my Lord!

Let my lips ever praise You
My thoughts always be about You
Lord, let my life, let my life
bring glory and honor to Thy name!

I have done nothing
Lord, You have done everything
I did not choose You, Lord, You chose me!

I am so thankful, Lord
Take away the darkness in my eyes
Lord, let Your word illuminate me to see You, to hear You!

Lord, You are my everything
I am nothing without You, without You
So change me, oh Spirit
Create in me a heart that cannot beat apart from You, apart from You!

I stand in awe in who You are, My Savior
What You have done I cannot explain
You offered Your life for not my sake
But to display the power of Your name!

Your love is beyond all others
Jesus, Your mercy runs free
Lord, freely You gave Your son up for me
My place You took so I might live for Thee!

Lord, I trust You
Lord, I cling to Thee!

I am lost without You
Lord, You delivered me!

No man may boast for they have done nothing
Only You, Lord my Savior, can set the captive free!

We as a body of believers
Join now marveling at the cross
Knowing that should have been us!

So we stand
Working together
Doing what You, Lord, have called us to be.

We encourage
We strengthen
We uplift each other in prayer.

Carrying each others burdens
Lifting them up to You, Jesus, in prayer

Lord, we are thankful
Oh, so thankful
Lord, our tongues will never cease in endless praise.

Lord, make us holy
Purify us with Your blood.
Let us speak Your name
Until the whole world hears!

Lord, the hour of Your return is drawing near
But until that day
Let us begin our endless praise
To You, my Lord, my God, my Savior
My healer, My deliverer, my counselor
You are everything I need
Lord, I bow at Your feet!

posting after........def. WAY TOO LONG. :)

Isaiah 53:5
But He was pierced through for our transgressions,
He was crushed for our iniquities;
The chastening for our well being fell upon Him,
And by His scourging we are healed.